Wednesday, March 30, 2016
Life: Fine...
Life: Fine...: Something I learned awhile back: "Fine" stands for: "F" is for frustrated "I" is for insecure "N&quo...
Fine...
Something I learned awhile back:
"Fine" stands for:
"F" is for frustrated
"I" is for insecure
"N" is for neurotic
"E" is for exhausted
So I have learned that I don't answer people with the word "Fine" anymore when they ask me how I am. For the most part people don't really care how you feel so the polite customary way is to tell people you are fine.
After much thought I had heard someone say that when you are a person who lives with multiple health issues and if your feet hit the floor each morning and you thanked God for another day, is to say to people when they great you, that my response now is "I'm giving it a good ole try" and that is exactly what I am doing. Giving each day a good ole try.
Now for me to stay strong and positive is another question. I am just like any other people on this earth, that we all let stress take over our lives. But stress is not healthy for anyone. So what are we supposed to do? We can't always eliminate stress, but we can choose how to handle it. (Okay, I know I am being positive or optimistic) It truly is our choice as to how we handle stress and even our own lives.
I have a strong faith in God, and he gives me direction and hope. So what is the higher power that you truly believe in? Does it give you hope? So being a true Christian it's not always about attending church on Sunday's, it's about being a committed person of faith. I am not saying that I am always committed to my faith and yep, I am human so I do sin (probably most of the time), but I do repent and ask for forgiveness. But I am certainly not "Fine"... I am broken in so many ways.
I always question "why" do I have Gastroparesis, and Bipolar, and a severe digestive system disorder, an autoimmune disease, COPD, Fibromyalgia and so one? I guess because God thinks I am a bad ass and that I can handle it all. And for the most part I do, and yes there are days I don't. So does that make me just "fine"?
Nope, I am not just fine, but I do feel that my purpose since I have been diagnosed with a chronic debilitation terminal illness, is to be a good person, a good friend, a good neighbor, a good listener, a good motivator, and just simply be what I should be and that is giving each day a "good ole try".
So I have learned to smell the flowers, fresh cut grass, look at the sunrises, look at the sunsets, appreciate all that I have and just ride that roller coaster with my health and bipolar. Trust me that roller coaster has been busy here lately. As I am sure many people are the same way. So sit down, buckle up, and just give it a try.
Now I wish I could conjure up a cure for Gastroparesis, Bipolar or any other disorder/disease people have so that we could all live a harmonious life. But I am not God. So why does he allow people (like me and you) suffer physical, mental and emotional pain? I sure wish I knew why. So I have been taking a different look at it. God wants us to be compelled to understand that our physical being is fragile and yep, we do come to an expiration date. It's how we handle our lives as to when that expiration date comes. (mine will be sooner than later - and so many good people have expired sooner than what I have wanted them to)...So I do understand how we all can be numb, upset, angry and eventually accept what we are dealt. I think the cards for me are all stacked the wrong way.
I guess I am scared as to what will happen to me. I have worked all my life from the age of 14 on. I have been a dedicated, reliable employee. Now with my disabilities I am facing a early medical retirement. I think I will still develop a sense of purpose. I will need that purpose to continue to want to live on and fight. And so I have 3 purposes (my kids) and my husband, my step kids, my step grandson, and all of my many friends.
So I kind of thought, I give 2 ladies a ride to work almost every day, (it's on my way and they walk all the time)... I have made 2 new friends and I find that exciting. So what if after my retirement I start up a Uber service. That could give me a purpose still, make a little bit of cash and meet new people.
Are you really just "Fine"...? I know I am not. I am just giving each day a good ole try. Because my feet seem to keep hitting the floor every day after I wake up and so I guess even thru my pain I have to keep going because people rely on me in so many different ways.
So please keep giving your life a "good ole try" and just remember "Fine" is kind of a mind numbing answer to all of the passing question. So mix things up and startle a stranger, worker, friend or whomever with the words, giving it a good ole try.
Keep Smiling
Carla
"Fine" stands for:
"F" is for frustrated
"I" is for insecure
"N" is for neurotic
"E" is for exhausted
So I have learned that I don't answer people with the word "Fine" anymore when they ask me how I am. For the most part people don't really care how you feel so the polite customary way is to tell people you are fine.
After much thought I had heard someone say that when you are a person who lives with multiple health issues and if your feet hit the floor each morning and you thanked God for another day, is to say to people when they great you, that my response now is "I'm giving it a good ole try" and that is exactly what I am doing. Giving each day a good ole try.
Now for me to stay strong and positive is another question. I am just like any other people on this earth, that we all let stress take over our lives. But stress is not healthy for anyone. So what are we supposed to do? We can't always eliminate stress, but we can choose how to handle it. (Okay, I know I am being positive or optimistic) It truly is our choice as to how we handle stress and even our own lives.
I have a strong faith in God, and he gives me direction and hope. So what is the higher power that you truly believe in? Does it give you hope? So being a true Christian it's not always about attending church on Sunday's, it's about being a committed person of faith. I am not saying that I am always committed to my faith and yep, I am human so I do sin (probably most of the time), but I do repent and ask for forgiveness. But I am certainly not "Fine"... I am broken in so many ways.
I always question "why" do I have Gastroparesis, and Bipolar, and a severe digestive system disorder, an autoimmune disease, COPD, Fibromyalgia and so one? I guess because God thinks I am a bad ass and that I can handle it all. And for the most part I do, and yes there are days I don't. So does that make me just "fine"?
Nope, I am not just fine, but I do feel that my purpose since I have been diagnosed with a chronic debilitation terminal illness, is to be a good person, a good friend, a good neighbor, a good listener, a good motivator, and just simply be what I should be and that is giving each day a "good ole try".
So I have learned to smell the flowers, fresh cut grass, look at the sunrises, look at the sunsets, appreciate all that I have and just ride that roller coaster with my health and bipolar. Trust me that roller coaster has been busy here lately. As I am sure many people are the same way. So sit down, buckle up, and just give it a try.
Now I wish I could conjure up a cure for Gastroparesis, Bipolar or any other disorder/disease people have so that we could all live a harmonious life. But I am not God. So why does he allow people (like me and you) suffer physical, mental and emotional pain? I sure wish I knew why. So I have been taking a different look at it. God wants us to be compelled to understand that our physical being is fragile and yep, we do come to an expiration date. It's how we handle our lives as to when that expiration date comes. (mine will be sooner than later - and so many good people have expired sooner than what I have wanted them to)...So I do understand how we all can be numb, upset, angry and eventually accept what we are dealt. I think the cards for me are all stacked the wrong way.
I guess I am scared as to what will happen to me. I have worked all my life from the age of 14 on. I have been a dedicated, reliable employee. Now with my disabilities I am facing a early medical retirement. I think I will still develop a sense of purpose. I will need that purpose to continue to want to live on and fight. And so I have 3 purposes (my kids) and my husband, my step kids, my step grandson, and all of my many friends.
So I kind of thought, I give 2 ladies a ride to work almost every day, (it's on my way and they walk all the time)... I have made 2 new friends and I find that exciting. So what if after my retirement I start up a Uber service. That could give me a purpose still, make a little bit of cash and meet new people.
Are you really just "Fine"...? I know I am not. I am just giving each day a good ole try. Because my feet seem to keep hitting the floor every day after I wake up and so I guess even thru my pain I have to keep going because people rely on me in so many different ways.
So please keep giving your life a "good ole try" and just remember "Fine" is kind of a mind numbing answer to all of the passing question. So mix things up and startle a stranger, worker, friend or whomever with the words, giving it a good ole try.
Keep Smiling
Carla
No wrong turnings...
“There are no wrong turnings. Only paths we had not known we were meant to walk.”
Have you ever caught yourself going down the wrong turn and yet not know how to turn back?
I know I have done this so many different times. And I guess as this quote states there are no wrong turns. These are paths that we didn't know we were meant to walk down. We may not like the walk and we may be scared of what is at this end of the walk, but do we turn around and go back?
But what if you go back and face your past once again? I know I really don't want to face my past and relive it again, as long as I know how my future is all going to turn out (not so pleasant). But what if we could all turn around, go back and correct all of the regrets we have made in our lives? This is something I have been pondering each and every day, simply because my health has really gotten worse from some choices that I made, yep in my past, but if I could go back and make new choices, would my life today be any different?
Just as the "Doc" in "Back to the future" we can't cross paths with our former selves because it would change the time of our future. But let me tell you I really want to go back and make changes because I do really feel like if I could make some different choices in my past life then I wouldn't be sitting here now today with all of these regrets. I will never ever regret my 3 children, they are the absolute
best thing that God ever gave me, was to blessed to be their Momma. I don't know where I'd be without them. So I really don't want to go back so far as to not have my kiddos. I guess I don't really know where I'd want to go back to?
I know God has control of our former, present and future selves (that is if you believe). And I do know that I would not be where I am today without my ultimate faith in God. He is the reason I am still here today. Simply because I lost all sense of my life and I just wanted all of the mental and physical pain to stop and so God saved me from my suicide attempt. So I wonder to myself is this what God saved me for? To live my life in a miserable state and go forward down a different path and no turning back? So of course my human desire is to NOT live such a miserable existence. And trust me there are so many times I really wish God would just take me to heaven. But I know my kids and family would be so hurt and really miss me.
So I guess this path that I am supposed to walk down is way different than the path I would have chosen for myself. I struggle and fight myself constantly and I truly hate this point in my life as it is.
So why as human's do we hate our current state of life if this is truly what God chose for us? Because just that, we are human and that is what we do, fight the current path that we are supposed to walk down. So I guess their are no wrong turns, just a path we didn't know we were supposed to walk down.
Do you have any regrets? Then if so don't look back and take the wrong turn, try to take a path we didn't know we were supposed to follow. Because maybe, just maybe, this path just may be the right turn.
Keep Smiling
Carla
Have you ever caught yourself going down the wrong turn and yet not know how to turn back?
I know I have done this so many different times. And I guess as this quote states there are no wrong turns. These are paths that we didn't know we were meant to walk down. We may not like the walk and we may be scared of what is at this end of the walk, but do we turn around and go back?
But what if you go back and face your past once again? I know I really don't want to face my past and relive it again, as long as I know how my future is all going to turn out (not so pleasant). But what if we could all turn around, go back and correct all of the regrets we have made in our lives? This is something I have been pondering each and every day, simply because my health has really gotten worse from some choices that I made, yep in my past, but if I could go back and make new choices, would my life today be any different?
Just as the "Doc" in "Back to the future" we can't cross paths with our former selves because it would change the time of our future. But let me tell you I really want to go back and make changes because I do really feel like if I could make some different choices in my past life then I wouldn't be sitting here now today with all of these regrets. I will never ever regret my 3 children, they are the absolute
best thing that God ever gave me, was to blessed to be their Momma. I don't know where I'd be without them. So I really don't want to go back so far as to not have my kiddos. I guess I don't really know where I'd want to go back to?
I know God has control of our former, present and future selves (that is if you believe). And I do know that I would not be where I am today without my ultimate faith in God. He is the reason I am still here today. Simply because I lost all sense of my life and I just wanted all of the mental and physical pain to stop and so God saved me from my suicide attempt. So I wonder to myself is this what God saved me for? To live my life in a miserable state and go forward down a different path and no turning back? So of course my human desire is to NOT live such a miserable existence. And trust me there are so many times I really wish God would just take me to heaven. But I know my kids and family would be so hurt and really miss me.
So I guess this path that I am supposed to walk down is way different than the path I would have chosen for myself. I struggle and fight myself constantly and I truly hate this point in my life as it is.
So why as human's do we hate our current state of life if this is truly what God chose for us? Because just that, we are human and that is what we do, fight the current path that we are supposed to walk down. So I guess their are no wrong turns, just a path we didn't know we were supposed to walk down.
Do you have any regrets? Then if so don't look back and take the wrong turn, try to take a path we didn't know we were supposed to follow. Because maybe, just maybe, this path just may be the right turn.
Keep Smiling
Carla
Monday, February 8, 2016
Life: Confidently...
Life: Confidently...: "We all walk confidently knowing that with every ending something new begins!" What if we all walked confidently knowing that e...
Confidently...
"We all walk confidently knowing that with every ending something new begins!"
What if we all walked confidently knowing that every foot step we make on this earth does mean something? We were not put her to just exist.
Although sometimes I'd like to climb into a hole and hide when I really don't feel good at all. But then I always somehow pull my big girl panties on and make my way to work. Simply because it gives me purpose. (however I have initiated filing for a early medical retirement from work) not life though.
I posted that I was tired of going thru all of these feedings tubes (J/G tube) and I go thru these surgery replacements awake but loopy. Ok after 29 surgeries one does get tired. If these tubes were actually going to save my life and any of these other surgeries were going to make my life easier, better etc. I would still have them. But I sat back and soul searched and trying to decide what is "best" for me. And with much thought, I decided to just let this current tube come out once it clogs or whatever and I am not going to do the feeds anymore. (I mean why, I still get sick and vomit whether I am on it or not)... I know someone out here it going to poo poo me and that is ok. We all have our own ideas, our own desires and our own life to live. But have you stopped to realize that our quality of life is miserable.
So how do we stay confident during all of this? We have to realize that their is no "ending", because their is always something new that begins when we decide to take on a different approach to life. Confidence comes from within yourself. I know our health can place us all on a roller coaster ride. But I decided to sit back and throw my arms in the air, be a confident person, and ride that coaster downhill. Because the ride is thrilling.
A positive approach is tough sometimes when we find ourselves (no matter) what our chronic illnesses are, can be hard. But when you sit in bed or in a chair and feel "self pity" then you won't make it in this cold cruel world.
I have been playing the victim card for along time, and last weekend I sat in a recliner at my sister in laws and listened to every one snore and I went multiple times to the toilet to leave my lunch and dinner. And I decided then that you know, God made me this way, why am I fighting it? Why am I not walking confidently in my chronic illness? Because I've been allowing myself to be a victim. Now don't get me wrong, being a victim of these horrible chronic illnesses is very normal. I have went thru so many stages in my life when I was given the ultimate diagnosis of "chronic debilitating digestive terminal illness"...
So I became numb, angry, sad and now acceptance. (and very self protective). And that is ok.
I found myself sitting in the dark thinking to myself "why me?" How could God do this to me and possibly take me away from my kids. But then he touched my heart and told me "sister they are adults now" and that I have instilled so many great qualities in them and that I needed to cut the umbilical cord. Trust me that was so very extremely hard and therefore I did it. I have released them to be the adults they chose to be. I do know that my kids are extremely close to me and will never leave my side. And for that I am extremely blessed that God chose me to be their Mom.
Why do we have to walk confidently knowing that every ending something new begins? Why don't we begin to do something new? Have you made a bucket list? I have (and of course I have re-written it). So maybe riding a Unicorn could be out of reality for me. So I guess riding a horse again is more attainable. But why squelch our dreams. Maybe we could bye a Unicorn at Wal-Mart cause you can buy most everything there. (Oh remember I hate Wal-Mart = and I did have another horrible run in with that place a few weeks back and I swear on my last breath I will never ever go there again)...
So what do we all do each and every day? We attempt to walk confidently in our walk here on earth and know that with every ending something new begins. This is the cycle of life. I hope I can leave a legacy worth talking about and remembering because I sure don't want to bring myself down to earth with Angel Wings and attack some people with confidence so they stop thinking of themselves as victims. Because we aren't victims we are survivors from what ever life throws at us...
Keep Smiling
Carla
What if we all walked confidently knowing that every foot step we make on this earth does mean something? We were not put her to just exist.
Although sometimes I'd like to climb into a hole and hide when I really don't feel good at all. But then I always somehow pull my big girl panties on and make my way to work. Simply because it gives me purpose. (however I have initiated filing for a early medical retirement from work) not life though.
I posted that I was tired of going thru all of these feedings tubes (J/G tube) and I go thru these surgery replacements awake but loopy. Ok after 29 surgeries one does get tired. If these tubes were actually going to save my life and any of these other surgeries were going to make my life easier, better etc. I would still have them. But I sat back and soul searched and trying to decide what is "best" for me. And with much thought, I decided to just let this current tube come out once it clogs or whatever and I am not going to do the feeds anymore. (I mean why, I still get sick and vomit whether I am on it or not)... I know someone out here it going to poo poo me and that is ok. We all have our own ideas, our own desires and our own life to live. But have you stopped to realize that our quality of life is miserable.
So how do we stay confident during all of this? We have to realize that their is no "ending", because their is always something new that begins when we decide to take on a different approach to life. Confidence comes from within yourself. I know our health can place us all on a roller coaster ride. But I decided to sit back and throw my arms in the air, be a confident person, and ride that coaster downhill. Because the ride is thrilling.
A positive approach is tough sometimes when we find ourselves (no matter) what our chronic illnesses are, can be hard. But when you sit in bed or in a chair and feel "self pity" then you won't make it in this cold cruel world.
I have been playing the victim card for along time, and last weekend I sat in a recliner at my sister in laws and listened to every one snore and I went multiple times to the toilet to leave my lunch and dinner. And I decided then that you know, God made me this way, why am I fighting it? Why am I not walking confidently in my chronic illness? Because I've been allowing myself to be a victim. Now don't get me wrong, being a victim of these horrible chronic illnesses is very normal. I have went thru so many stages in my life when I was given the ultimate diagnosis of "chronic debilitating digestive terminal illness"...
So I became numb, angry, sad and now acceptance. (and very self protective). And that is ok.
I found myself sitting in the dark thinking to myself "why me?" How could God do this to me and possibly take me away from my kids. But then he touched my heart and told me "sister they are adults now" and that I have instilled so many great qualities in them and that I needed to cut the umbilical cord. Trust me that was so very extremely hard and therefore I did it. I have released them to be the adults they chose to be. I do know that my kids are extremely close to me and will never leave my side. And for that I am extremely blessed that God chose me to be their Mom.
Why do we have to walk confidently knowing that every ending something new begins? Why don't we begin to do something new? Have you made a bucket list? I have (and of course I have re-written it). So maybe riding a Unicorn could be out of reality for me. So I guess riding a horse again is more attainable. But why squelch our dreams. Maybe we could bye a Unicorn at Wal-Mart cause you can buy most everything there. (Oh remember I hate Wal-Mart = and I did have another horrible run in with that place a few weeks back and I swear on my last breath I will never ever go there again)...
So what do we all do each and every day? We attempt to walk confidently in our walk here on earth and know that with every ending something new begins. This is the cycle of life. I hope I can leave a legacy worth talking about and remembering because I sure don't want to bring myself down to earth with Angel Wings and attack some people with confidence so they stop thinking of themselves as victims. Because we aren't victims we are survivors from what ever life throws at us...
Keep Smiling
Carla
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Life: Comfort Zone...
Life: Comfort Zone...: "Life begins at the end of your comfort zone" I guess I had not really thought about this quote. Does life really begin when we...
Comfort Zone...
"Life begins at the end of your comfort zone"
I guess I had not really thought about this quote. Does life really begin when we step out of our comfort zone? I know when I was a youth leader in a church group back when my kids were teenagers we always taught them to "Think out of the box". So I guess this quote kind of states that, we all need to begin living our life now and not when we step out of our comfort zone.
How many of you have actually stopped (I mean really stopped), took a step back and looked at your life (really looked) and thought "WOW" is this the person that I really am? And maybe you like the person you are, and that is wonderful (don't stop), but I know I am one who has stopped and looked at my life (recently) and have came to the realization that my life has been wonderful, I have so many wonderful memories, I have 3 great kids and a amazing husband. But I just didn't feel complete. I hadn't stepped out of my comfort zone yet, I liked living daily knowing what or how I was going to do things because I have always been a neat freak and somewhat OCD. Always had to be with 3 tiny babies a full time job and bread winner and a husband who owned his own job. So lets just say life was chaotic, busy, I was the Mom who did everything, the basketball Mom, the softball Mom, the tooth fairy, the Santa clause, the tucked into bed every night, the Mom whom allowed every wayward kid into my home because I knew where my kids were then. We lived out in the country and so we chased fireflies, we trampled thru the garden, I even bottled up food out of the garden. Yep we lived in this century. But I wanted our kids to experience the life I did growing up, but with a little more pizazz. And that they did. I have so very many fond memories.
As I recently received grim news from a GI specialist (one of many) that stated I have a chronic terminal illness, this makes you stop dead in your tracks. I have been going thru the numb phase (how could this be happening to me, what did I ever do to deserve this? How could God put me thru this?)
Now I am going thru the sad phase. I just cry at every little thing that triggers these thoughts racing thru my mind. I have found myself being extremely quiet and I just think about all of my numerous memories of my life from the beginning to what my end will be like. I really want to leave a legacy for my kids, but "how?" I have started writing letters to my husband (to open once I pass), I am writing letters to each one of my kids (to open once I pass) and I have been going thru my very personal items and marking them as to which kid gets which item. Trust me this is so extremely hard, but I know I have to do it. I have even re-written my "living will" and "power of attorney".
So why is it that no one ever learns to live out of their comfort zone? Good question? But I don't think they realize that someday they will not get out of this world alive. They think they are indestructible. That nothing will ever happen to them. But we all need to stop and learn to think out of the box.
When I divorced I started a "bucket list" and some of the items on my list where easy and I accomplished several of them, but of course I had some grandiose ideas that really were never going to be attainable. So now that I know I have a terminal illness I have sat back down and I have been re-writing my new bucket list. Trust me these items are much easier to obtain and I pray to God that I can at least do some of these things on my list. I have started by watching the sunsets with coffee and watching the butterflies, birds, squirrels, my cat and my beloved dog, Maggie. And each time I think of Maggie, my kids and my husband it makes me cry to think I am not always going to be there. But I must be strong. Strong for them, strong for me and strong because God is holding me together and therefore I have been positive in helping others deal with their issues of their own. Because maybe just maybe they will be able to live out of their comfort zone and live for a long time.
So I am always telling my kids to look "outside of the box" and take chances. Because we all need to stop living in out comfort zone and look at life differently. I hope I can instill this in my kids and my husband because that is a legacy I want each one of them to remember me by. "Is that Mom or wife took chances, looked at life differently, loved so many different things and was always a blessing to others".
So stop take a look at your own life, and stop to think what if I was told I was going to die sooner than later. Would you step out of your comfort zone? Would you start to live a life you want? Write a "bucket list"? Just simply learn to love the small things in life.
I know I will because once I am gone I have asked God to allow me to fly like a bird, to simply soar over the earth and bask in the view of what God created. Because that is stepping out of my comfort zone.
Keep Smiling
Carla
I guess I had not really thought about this quote. Does life really begin when we step out of our comfort zone? I know when I was a youth leader in a church group back when my kids were teenagers we always taught them to "Think out of the box". So I guess this quote kind of states that, we all need to begin living our life now and not when we step out of our comfort zone.
How many of you have actually stopped (I mean really stopped), took a step back and looked at your life (really looked) and thought "WOW" is this the person that I really am? And maybe you like the person you are, and that is wonderful (don't stop), but I know I am one who has stopped and looked at my life (recently) and have came to the realization that my life has been wonderful, I have so many wonderful memories, I have 3 great kids and a amazing husband. But I just didn't feel complete. I hadn't stepped out of my comfort zone yet, I liked living daily knowing what or how I was going to do things because I have always been a neat freak and somewhat OCD. Always had to be with 3 tiny babies a full time job and bread winner and a husband who owned his own job. So lets just say life was chaotic, busy, I was the Mom who did everything, the basketball Mom, the softball Mom, the tooth fairy, the Santa clause, the tucked into bed every night, the Mom whom allowed every wayward kid into my home because I knew where my kids were then. We lived out in the country and so we chased fireflies, we trampled thru the garden, I even bottled up food out of the garden. Yep we lived in this century. But I wanted our kids to experience the life I did growing up, but with a little more pizazz. And that they did. I have so very many fond memories.
As I recently received grim news from a GI specialist (one of many) that stated I have a chronic terminal illness, this makes you stop dead in your tracks. I have been going thru the numb phase (how could this be happening to me, what did I ever do to deserve this? How could God put me thru this?)
Now I am going thru the sad phase. I just cry at every little thing that triggers these thoughts racing thru my mind. I have found myself being extremely quiet and I just think about all of my numerous memories of my life from the beginning to what my end will be like. I really want to leave a legacy for my kids, but "how?" I have started writing letters to my husband (to open once I pass), I am writing letters to each one of my kids (to open once I pass) and I have been going thru my very personal items and marking them as to which kid gets which item. Trust me this is so extremely hard, but I know I have to do it. I have even re-written my "living will" and "power of attorney".
So why is it that no one ever learns to live out of their comfort zone? Good question? But I don't think they realize that someday they will not get out of this world alive. They think they are indestructible. That nothing will ever happen to them. But we all need to stop and learn to think out of the box.
When I divorced I started a "bucket list" and some of the items on my list where easy and I accomplished several of them, but of course I had some grandiose ideas that really were never going to be attainable. So now that I know I have a terminal illness I have sat back down and I have been re-writing my new bucket list. Trust me these items are much easier to obtain and I pray to God that I can at least do some of these things on my list. I have started by watching the sunsets with coffee and watching the butterflies, birds, squirrels, my cat and my beloved dog, Maggie. And each time I think of Maggie, my kids and my husband it makes me cry to think I am not always going to be there. But I must be strong. Strong for them, strong for me and strong because God is holding me together and therefore I have been positive in helping others deal with their issues of their own. Because maybe just maybe they will be able to live out of their comfort zone and live for a long time.
So I am always telling my kids to look "outside of the box" and take chances. Because we all need to stop living in out comfort zone and look at life differently. I hope I can instill this in my kids and my husband because that is a legacy I want each one of them to remember me by. "Is that Mom or wife took chances, looked at life differently, loved so many different things and was always a blessing to others".
So stop take a look at your own life, and stop to think what if I was told I was going to die sooner than later. Would you step out of your comfort zone? Would you start to live a life you want? Write a "bucket list"? Just simply learn to love the small things in life.
I know I will because once I am gone I have asked God to allow me to fly like a bird, to simply soar over the earth and bask in the view of what God created. Because that is stepping out of my comfort zone.
Keep Smiling
Carla
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