I don't know if you can relate to this, but boy can I. I have gone through some very bad things in my life, but you know they have made me stronger and maybe just maybe I have gotten the best things in my life also.
My worst has been some very bad health issues, but then that makes you look at life differently. The worse things in life does bring the best things in life to you as long as you look for it.
If we don't keep our eyes, ears, taste, touch open and ready to learn we will never ever learn the best things we have in life. And I am not talking about family, kids, husbands etc. Those are a given as far as the best things in life (at least they are for me). The best things I can say that I have experienced was gifts God has given me. Just as I have stated before the sunrises, sunsets, beautiful skies, etc.
My biggest sense is my hearing, I am a complete and utterly music fan. I love all genres of music (except for rap and real deep blue grass) other than that I love all music. Depending on my mood will bring out the best music I can find.
My eyes, give me the ability to see so many things, like the little things along with the big things. Of course we can see all of what life gives us. I don't know if I could ever live without sight. It is a true blessing to be able to see all of Gods gifts.
Taste brings so many things into your life. As the holidays have came being able to sit down with family and friends is a great time of year. Unless you are dealing with a chronic illness like Gastroparesis or some other stomach issue. Then the sitting down at a dinner table is the hardest thing in life. We can not partake in all of the great things to taste. But there are other things we can learn to taste and that is up to you. Think about all the things in life that we can learn to taste. I can remember eating glue in grade school (maybe that's what brought about my stomach problems) but if you sit back and think about taste there are many things that we just don't realize what we taste. Kissing someone you love can really open up the sense of taste (why of course) and so many other things. (I will leave this to your imagination).
Touch is probably the biggest thing I crave. I crave being touched, loved, cuddled, hugged etc. This is so very important to me. I crave intimacy (and I am not talking the way others may think). I believe going through all of my chronic illnesses this brings on my need for touch. I am a very self protective person. I always have my arms crossed around my chest, I know this is because I spent years by myself and Ive had to protect myself. From being in and out of the hospital's and being poked and prodded and have gone thru so many different tests, these kinds of touches are not comfortable. So having a better sense of touch is what I desire.
So being so very deep (upon which I am)... I am very raw and I have so many things that run thru my head. My husband says I think way to much, but I think this is a gift from God for me. Because I have this ability to write, and bring out my meanings I have learned in life.
I attempted suicide because I wanted all of the pain to end. But does the pain really end when we do that? Maybe for ourselves but we don't think about all the pain we bring on to our loved ones. They are left behind wondering why? Why did your best friend, child, spouse, Mom or Dad , etc take their own life? How could we leave them behind? So the pain they feel is not the best thing to do.
So even tho we are chronically ill doesn't mean we should give up. I lean on my family, my husband and my faith. My God has led me and has carried me thru so many hard issues in my life. I have faced so many things in my life by myself and so self protection is not always a bad thing. But there are times that maybe we need to open ourselves up to our senses and our family and friends. Because they care and they are their to help us. Our senses that God has given us are gifts.
So dance in the rain (when it is of course a warm rain), catch fireflies with your children, have a bonfire to feel the warmth, taste the snow flakes as they come down (and each snow flake is different just like people), sit and read a great book (drift off into a different world that the writer has given you), find yourself breathing in the scent of a great cologne or perfume, listen to the most amazing music that maybe takes you back to a memory or is just simply amazing. Because it is not the biggest things in life that mean the most, it is the little things in life that brings memories to your family, friends etc.
I choose to do the little things (and actually I have danced in the rain with my kids, I have tasted snowflakes with my kids, I have watched them catch fireflies and tried to save them, I have read the most amazing books, I have of course listened to the most amazing songs and of course when I smell a cologne or perfume that brings back memories whether they are good or not is a gift.
What kind of worst things in your life has brought you the best things in your life? I know what mine are.
Keep Smiling
Carla
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