I don't know about you but I really wish God would place a miracle in my life that would heal all of my chronic illnesses. But I also know that God gave me all of these chronic illnesses so that I can look at life and everything within this life as a miracle. (so it's a double edged sword)
I have learned from being extremely sick to look at life as though God has granted me another day to be open to any kind of new experiences. Such as the morning sunrise, the butterflies that flutter around me, my dog and her unconditional love, even the locusts who are singing a deafening song right now in the evenings when I take my dog for a walk. Life is full of so many different miracles and they may be small but they are there. You just need to open yourself up to seeing these miracles all around us daily.
How do you look at life? Do you look for the little miracles that God grants us? I know there are day's when we all hang our heads low because we are sick either mentally, physically or emotionally. I have had so many of these days. And I have some pressing health issues coming up with my husband and myself and it is so hard to stop and look at these little miracles. But you know what, God has given me a big miracle in bringing my new husband into my life 2 years ago. He granted me the miracle of being a mother to 3 wonderful kids. And so forth. So I guess there are two ways to live life. We can choose to look for these little miracles or we can choose to just hang our heads and go throughout life hating everything and everyone. But I really think that is a miserable way to live.
I will be having a permanent Jejostomy tube placed sometime within the next week or so. Trust me I have a love/hate relationship with these tubes and I really don't want to have another one, but my life without it is somewhat miserable so having it will help me to feel better. So I guess I can look at it as a miracle from God for me to continue to live on this earth and be here for my husband, kids and family.
I just got 2 new tattoos to represent the passing of my parents, and then to represent my fight with Gastroparesis, and to mark my 3 month anniversary of surviving an attempted suicide. The guy who did my ink was wonderful and they turned out great. This is a miracle/gift from God. I get to display the fact that life can have it's up and downs but we can survive if we choose survival.
I can barely remember much about my attempted suicide, but the one memory that keeps coming back into my mind is my husband, Jeff, screaming my name at me to try to get me to wake up. I hear it in my head now constantly him saying my name and you know I find it comforting to know that he came home early (a miracle from God) from work and he was able to get the ambulance there to save me. The hospital doctor told him if he had been even 30 minutes late I would have been dead. WOW a true miracle from God.
So question is?? What is you WOW in your life? And do you look for all the tiny miracles?
Keep Smiling
Carla
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